After studying film for a year in university, Sara Adams switched over to studying English Literature and Classic Civilizations. Adams, an Indian writer living in Toronto, decided that if she was going to spend her time analyzing something, it would have to be literature. It was during university that the 25-year-old started writing disturbance (with you).
Originally, Adams' story was a fanfiction. When she began to see the potential of her work, she changed the character’s names and personalities to better suit her new stand-alone fictional piece. disturbance (with you) has been in the works for years, but now it’s complete.
Jaya is an aspiring photographer who recently quit her mundane part-time job to pursue her craft. With her friends Soo-Min and Victoria already successful in their fields, Jaya races to catch up. Now faced with a possible full-time, photography-related opportunity, Jaya must try to untangle herself from a yarn ball full of self-doubt and endless comparisons that she’s been making for herself since she graduated university.
disturbance (with you) was Adams' way of cathartically addressing the anxieties that came with life after university. “There was this Millennial existential question: What do you do after university? All of those stresses were in me when I started this,” says Adams. “But because it’s been a couple years since I started it, it’s changed. So, not only is this anxiety about the future, I’m now in the future.” Now that Adams can better relate to her character, she feels that her writing has grown more intense over the years. “You can feel it—it’s a struggle. That job hunt is a struggle. Seeing other people around you being successful is a struggle,” says Adams. “As I kept coming back to it, it almost got more painful to write, because every time looked at it, it was as if I had a premonition of my future struggles. It was painful to read, because it was what I was living.”
The completion of the piece marks an achievement for Adams, who decided to stop giving up on projects when she found a place to live in Toronto. “That was very hard to do, because failure was a gigantic fear. But, there’s only one way you’re going to get anywhere, and it’s if you keep going,” says Adams. “As long as I keep moving, things will start working out. Whereas if you stop moving completely, nothing’s going to happen or change. I think a lot of things have gotten more positive in my life, which is great.” The next step, Adams says, is to complete a manuscript.
In relation, Adams' protagonist needs to gain the same momentum. “Movement is interesting. Everyone moves at a different pace,” says Adams. “In the story, it’s very much about the relationships that Jaya has with her two friends. And because she’s moving so slowly, it’s like they’ve branched away from her. She feels very much left in the dust, but it’s also because she refuses to move.”